I have to say our agency, or rather our first contact at the agency is awesome. "Y" constantly updates me, almost daily by email as we are passing milestones left and right. We are still waiting for information to come in yet Y asked if we would like to sign up for the first parenting class that is a requirement for placement and must be completed before the home study. I, enthusiastically said YES - we will be there!!!! I'm thinking if she didn't believe we would make it through the approval process, she wouldn't be asking us to r.s.v.p. this early in the game.
I have to believe that this is a sign that we are doing the right thing, at the right time, with the right agency for the right reason.
Here is the thing, something I realized today. I knew we weren't really in control with fertility treatments and it was up to modern medicine and a higher power. With this scenario, I feel like people are in control of our fate/destiny in our efforts to become parents. I really feel at their mercy and I have to say I don't like it. It adds a whole complex layer to the already eff'd up situation. URGHHHHH
Ok - Got the venting out of my system, now I have a date with Ben and Jerry. They will make things good again.