Monday, May 5, 2008

One step closer....

And the longest two week wait of our life begins......

We passed the walk through.

Things to do:

I need to get the background check done.

My mom needs to get the background check done.

My SIL who has *GRACIOUSLY/KINDLY/MOST GIVING EVER* has offered to be our daycare provider needs to get her background check and CPR/First Aid. Speaking of my SIL - I'm beyond lucky and grateful. This child is already felt in our hearts and is happily awaited by our family and friends.

Tonight we met our replacement for "Y" whom I've gotten along with really well over the phone and didn't have many concerns about meeting face to face. Besides, who wouldn't love me- because I'm adorable, sweet and would be a really great mom (and so humble - hee, hee). I was told "L" would be here at 5:30 and had not heard the door when I yelled across the house " WHAT ARE YOU WEARING" and no response from Duane until he walked toward me with a smile and said "THEY are here", followed by me saying in a hushed whisper "WHAAAAAAAT"???????? THEY????? Thinking, I thought it was just "L". Funny, I no longer cared what he was wearing and hoping that they weren't thinking I was a raving banshee.

All I could think of was - Thank G*D I didn't say (jokingly, of course) QUICK- HIDE THE HEROIN, BEFORE THE AGENCY PEOPLE ARRIVE.


Having a person you have never met before into inspect your home and every orifice of it = extremely stressful, having two people you don't know = double the extreme feeling of stress. Total invasion of personal space and privacy, which I 'm not a huge fan of. My home is my sanctuary and my personal private space. I love to entertain and have people over regularly. I assume they are not checking to see if there is an updated ABC brand fire extinguisher hanging in my kitchen and the temperature in my shower is between 105 and 120 degrees. Ours is 109, by the way.

They (L and person assisting/training her, whose name I did not catch) quickly and swiftly went through the checklist and were out in about an hour. Towards the end, they said "Well, it looks good, you passed". Which was kind of a let down, what - no parade? no fanfare? C'mon where is the marching band? We said our Good-bye's and I was about one blink away before I got the crazy eyes going and said. Ok, we'll just remember what a great home this is and please give us your first available child, half joking and half NOT. Thinking "Good Kara, way to act like a psycho". It's all in my mind, the minute we shut the door I asked Duane if I had the crazy going and (like a great husband) said " Of course, not"

So, while I may not be able to celebrate *THIS* Mother's Day this Sunday I find comfort in knowing that I will celebrate Mother's Day 2009, in a very big way. I have a feeling it will be the best one EVER!!!!

The feeling of hope and possibility of parenthood is becoming a reality and honestly, it's been a long time since we have experienced these feelings. A very welcomed change.

10 comments:

Io said...

You passed! Yay! Oh, I am so happy for you to get one step closer.

Io said...

My real name is Kara! I'm most comfortable with Io, even more so since I feel like there is already a Kara-you!

Angi said...

That is great news!! You are on your way now :-)

Barb said...

That's so wonderful for you Kara!

I have been in the pits lately, so it's so nice to see someone NOT there. It's nice to know you can come out on the other side. :)

kate said...

WOOHOOO!!!!! I'm so happy for you! That is the BEST! Consider me your one-woman parade- if I were closer, I would totally come and march through your living room RIGHT NOW.

And MAN, you are lucky with the SIL who will be your daycare person. How cool!

I agree. I would be stressed to the point of breaking if I had strangers inspecting my home. Eesh. I know its in pursuit of an awesome goal, but it still gives me the heebiejeebies thinking about someone at my house...

Ah, dude. You totally have my sense of humor. If I ever happened to get knocked up with an extra baby that H and I didn't need, I'd TOTALLY give it to you. I mean, there's the small matter of not being able to get knocked up with one, very wanted baby, but you know... details. Minor details...

I love it when my husband totally backs me up, even when I know he's lying. "Was that weird, what I just did, sug?" "Oh, NO. Not at all! You are the picture of normalcy!" (Heh. Yeah, right...)

Anyway, I'm so happy for you that you are in that hopeful place. This may not be your Mother's Day, but here's hoping for the next one to be your first.

YAY!!!!!

hope548 said...

Congrats on having another step in the process done!

katd said...

That is fantastic!! As if there was any doubt:) One step closer to your baby!! :)

Kara said...

Seriously - Y'ALL ROCK!!!

Thanks for the support gang. I really appreciate it. I don't know where I would be without all of you amazing women who brighten my days with your kind words and constant encouragement.

Emily said...

woo-hoo! jumping up and down and celebrating! Again ... sorry so late. Work has been kicking my butt!

Becky said...

Hi! I'm an adoptive mom that has stumbled upon your blog. I know where you've been...and were you are going! It's exciting and nerve racking however..you will get there!
Blessings!