I have alot of thinking to do.
We are leaving our profile open with the agency,working on our home improvement list and putting my career change on the front burner ( HELLO, CSET- I'm gonna kick your ass on 09/13). It could be a fleeting moment of clarity, I'll take it. I feel refreshed and ready to make things happen, make things happen that I can control that is.
Our agency contact "E" picked up the notebooks yesterday - YAY, done and out of the house. Not two minutes after "E" left the phone rang and it was stupid therapist lady recommended by the County. Our conversation went a little something like this:
STLRBTC: Hello, may I please speak with Kara.
K: Yes, how can I help you ( a bit bugged and wondering who the "unknown caller is)?
STLRBTC: Oh, Hello. Are you still fostering*insert BG name here*?
K: Who is this?
STLRBTC: This is therapist crazy pants *insert real name here*
K: What exactly is the purpose of your phone call? (She knows we aren't, she can easily contact the County and find this information from the evil SW)
STLRBTC: I have in my records that I was to contact you - sometime in August, as you were unsure of the girls being reunified and we didn't want to start this process if they were going to be reunified.
K: (In my mind- WTF Crazy pants, you flip-flopped back and forth about whether or not you were going to see her and had me completely confused) If my memory serves me, you stated that you would follow up with them once they were reunified because the Social Worker was recommending reunification.
STLRBTC: So are you saying they were reunified, because once they are reunified my side is done and I can close their file.
K: Yes, they are reunified and might I suggest (sounding like the world's biggest bitch) that you follow up with your friend "R" ( the evil SW from the County and yes, they happen to be friends IRL, or so crazy pants stated in the last phone call) to continue therapy.
STLRBTC: As I just said, once they are reunified my side is done.
K: Well, I would recommend that you follow up because both of those girls are going to need a boatload of therapy for what they have been through.
STLRBTC: Well, I will be the judge of that.
K: I thought you just said you are going to close their file? Are you or are you not going to see them? (Sounding again like a complete and total bitch)
K: Slam phone down on counter repeatedely while screaming profanity.
People - please quit effing with my head, puuuuuuhlease. It's my birthday week for G-d sake!
Why do I let people get to me. I felt like in a matter of 20 minutes - between the notebooks leaving and the phone call that I was spiraling down a deep, dark hole. All I wanted was a big chocolate chip cookie - Dam South Beach diet, I hate you. Actually, I hate my the size of my ass. Let's be truthful.