Waiting....

First, let me thank you all for your kind and supportive comments. You all or as my mom would say Y'all are amazing women whose strength and friendship I'm grateful and thankful for. I really appreciate that you not only read but also comment on my blog. I really want to thank you for taking time to post a comment, I cannot put into words how much it means to me.

Onto the business at hand. Surely, you must be thinking - WHERE ARE THESE KIDS ??? Well, so am I. Did I mention to you all that patience is not my strength (unless it's with kids directly in which case I have an incredible amount). I don't even know where to start the process of an update because every 5 minutes ( ok, a bit of an embellishment/exaggeration) the situation was changing. It truly was a roller coaster of a ride and emotions were running high yesterday. We fell into bed last night at 11:30 after D had put a set of bunk beds together and I had scrubbed the floors/walls and put away any object that I thought the County might deem either dangerous or unsuitable. When D went to pick up the bunk beds, I mentioned to him that I wanted the 7 year old to be able to pick out her own bedding and he agreed. He arrived home and handed me a bag and said " I know you told me and we agreed for the 7 year old to pick out her own bedding but I saw these sheets and I thought it might look more inviting if we have something on the bed." Let me just tell you that they are the prettiest - little girl sheets EVER. The man has really good taste, a great heart and he's cute too. I'm feeling might lucky.

Since we are reviewing yesterday in the reverse pattern I will also mention and vent that I phoned Duane to let him know I would not be going to school yesterday evening because I thought it was more important to go home and start cleaning. I got a huge lecture about how important school was ( really, it is ??? - C'mon, I'm not an idiot) and how much it costs ( really it cost alot, I thought we were going to pay for it from the money tree in the backyard. You know the one that you thought we had when you suggested ANOTHER vacation to the Yucatan in 3 months). I sit in a cube environment and don't have the luxury to respond in the tone/manner an voice I want to sometimes so I stated I would call back from my cell. When I called him back, he had regained his sense of logic and reasoning and thought that my idea of coming home to clean was a really good idea. I think the little 2 minute time out was a good thing.

The day was filled with me sitting on the edge of my seat and trying to be productive while waiting for the phone to ring which makes for a REALLY long day. I think I received a total of 4 emails from our agency SW "L" and each one was completely different from the last. Bottom line, the County does not want the girls to go into temporary placement while the County processes us instead they are trying to expedite the cutting of the red tape and hope to get us processed today. What probably isn't helping is that on Monday the headline of our local paper stated something to the effect of County Supervisors investigate fraud in the Foster care system. While the article and situation is mostly surrounding funding and spending for group homes getting into the wrong hands and being spent on items for luxury rather than necessity, I do know that our County is under scrutiny and I appreciate that they are following a process. We are supposed to get a call sometime today to pick up the girls. I have no kid food, no milk, no peanut butter and jelly and no diapers for the 2 year old. So after I pick them up, we will head straight to Target. I also have no car seat, as I'm not buying that until I get the call to go pick them up because I think I would fall apart if I had to drive around with a car seat and no child in it.

I've got a bad case of the "What If's" and I'm hoping that will pass.

I'll keep you all updated and again many thanks!