Our agency just called to let us know that birth parents will get 12 hour unmonitored visits -starting this Sunday. Good for them (did you pick up on my sarcasm?). When I sounded disappointed (at the County for not doing a thorough investigation) and asked for additional information regarding the court date in July as well as the progress the birth parents were making toward their plan, the agency contact picked up on my feelings of frustration and her response was "Well, we did recommend respite care for you to complete before a placement".
WHAT - is the word I wanted to scream into the phone. I calmly and gently reminded them that no, indeed that was not a recommendation as we had a discussion with "L" another agency contact and reminded her that we are actively involved in my niece and nephews lives on a daily basis with many over night visits so there was no need for us to complete respite care. I cannot articulate how frustrated I'm at this very moment.
Part of me, wants the birth parents to get their shit together so I don't become further attached to these two little darlings the other part of me wants to run down the street screaming.
Torn, bummed, deflated and feeling a bit depressed.
I knew this could happen but I had no idea how I was going to handle it and know I just want to be done. I have to remember that we are making a positive and indelible mark on their life.