Wednesday, February 11, 2009

10 days later...

It's hard to believe it has been ten short days since my universe has been turned on it's side. I don't know where to begin so I decided to update you on my -so-called life with a list of firsts that made me laugh, cry, cower, shriek and helped me to grow.


Here are some thoughts located at the forefront of my mind...

Wondering how long I could stay at work, one night last week, when faced with the thought of where to go - I had no idea and my mom's isn't quite like home - yet.

Going from "we" to "me"

Killing a spider with febreeze - I know, who knew? Febreeze? (without begging D to come and kill it first)

Not wearing my wedding/engagement rings daily (I nearly wept when typing these words)

Meeting a friend for dinner and not worrying about "getting home" to the husband

Wondering how I was blessed to have such an amazing support system - family, friends (both IRL and in blogland). Thank you all for checking in on me.

Speaking to my RE's assistant who asked me to call her when I was ready to become a mom ( I will more than likely pursue adoption through the foster care system, once I get settled into my own space)

Realizing (for the first time in a very long time) that I have an entire, exciting life ahead of me.

Tomorrow I start my day early and pack the remnants of my married life, moving them from the home I own to a storage unit or to the home I am living in. D and I met this evening to discuss our finances. YUCK and super YUCK. I hate and love money all at the same time.

Wish us luck - er, wish me luck.

18 comments:

lassie said...

I'm so glad you can see the exciting life in front of you. I can only imagine the ups and downs you've had and the fact that you are still getting out of bed, let alone moving forward, is admirable.

Take care of yourself, be selfish, be kooky, do whatever it takes to be happy.

annacyclopedia said...

I'm not only wishing you luck, but also joy, courage, strength, clarity, wisdom, and bliss. And I know in my heart that you will get through this and it will all be ok - no, better than ok. It will be magnificent. Because you are.

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Soapchick said...

You are in my thoughts and prayers and I'm glad you have some supportive friends and family to help you. You are right, you have an exciting life ahead of you. Believe it!

Amanda said...

I am amazed at your positivity in the midst of all this muck - if you're capable of that, then I think you will not only survive but triumph and soar and find better spaced :-)It just sucks you have to go through all this to get there.

I'm hear if you ever need a virtual ear.

Ally said...

Kara, I wish you not only luck, but all the joy your heart can hold. I wish you a life that is full of laughter, happiness, love, wonder, and amazing adventures.

You are such a beautiful person and I honestly believe you have nothing but the best life has to offer in front of you. It may not always be easy, but it will be *yours* and few things are better than that.

I am honored to be your friend.

Emily said...

Oh honey - you don't need the luck because you are such an amazing person. You are magnificent and brave and strong and beautiful. You go kick his ass!

Reggie Boppy said...

GOOD LUCK! You are a strong woman. PLease don't stop blogging...we'll miss you :)

Jules said...

You don't need luck; Duane does. He's the one stupid enough to walk away from the best thing that will EVER happen to him.

You'll do just fine on your charm, wit, and good looks. :)

Emily (Apron Strings) said...

Kara -- I know I've been totally incommunicado lately, and for that I'm so very sorry. Please know that a moment doesn't go by that I'm NOT thinking of you and wishing I could totally be there with you to hug you tight. My heart breaks alongside of yours ...

hope548 said...

I haven't stopped by in a while and I'm so sorry to hear your news. It sounds like you are dealing with things in a healthy manner, and I hope that true. Good luck in starting your new life!! Take care.

Anonymous said...

Hang in there, sister! Take it one thing at a time and know you're cared for by many folks far & wide! Jennie & Bart

Emily (Apron Strings) said...

Not that this amounts to anything ... but come visit my blog. I gots you a bit of an award ...

Alex said...

It sounds like you are being very strong in the face of something incredibly hard. And for that you should be very proud of yourself. When you have hard days, accept them for the normal occurance they are, and focus on the good ones.

Good Luck!!!

Lollipop Goldstein said...

I'm wishing you good luck--giving you good thoughts for this next leg of the journey.

Iheartfashion said...

Sending you nothing but good wishes, and hoping you can continue to see life as a grand adventure.

Barb said...

So you're back? Are you going to continue blogging then? hugs

webkinzfan said...

I personally don't believe in "luck" so it would be insincere to wish you luck. However, I do wish you blessings, strenghth, courage and for you to have RL friends and companions who will come beside you when you need them most and help you along on this difficult juouney that your on.
I don't know if your a reader, but if you are, I highly recommend the book "Crazy Time". It is about what people just like you have experienced during their divorce jouney. Here's the summery- its a wild ride- through disbelief, shock, anger, ambivelence and depression, but a strong woman like you will make it through this jouney and build a new life for yourself, either a through remarrage or singlehood!

Hang in there. You will make it.

Hugs for you, sweetie.

Tracy